Staring at Perfection.

let it slide,

let your troubles fall behind you

let it shine

until you feel it all around you

and i don't mind

if it's me you need to turn to

we'll get by,

it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made

in these small hours

these little wonders,

these twists & turns of fate

time falls away,

but these small hours,

these small hours still remain

hey People!

nationals is starting tmr.

and the most important one,

is Tomorrow.

we've been through so many crap ass trainings,

and kl! where our whole body was aching in pain.

let all these pay off once again.

let us bring Glory to our school,

and to Cedar Badminton.

I mean, we got so far last year.

i think if we have Faith,

we'll do better.

Remember, We've got Nothing to Lose.

We'll give it our best

and shock them again.

Just like last year.

Who says Underdogs can't make History?

yeah and I think without you guys,

i definately will not be the person i am today.

and i'm thankful i have you guys around me everyday.

i feel secure with you all.

and yes, those small hours of macs,

of bridge,

of chat,

of nonsense,

were Wonderful.

and it has mould us to who we are today.

People call us a Clique,

some call us a Gang.

I think the proper word has to be,

Sisters.

Emo Red.

they made us wake up so early, which explains my hair. HAHA celine's hair look like barcode!

celine, i give you only ONE photo. you know you look so childish, but i look SO CUTE.

bimbotic kellie.

HAHAHA WE HAD SO MUCH FUN.

i really miss you guys.
have you forgot?

ill stand by you,


pink.

things are meant to be cruel.
some talks can be so real, yet so fake.
so how do we rate it?
and what should we actually believe?

pink.

come back on.

As i was on the last plane home,
the 6th plane,
i felt a sudden shiver,
my heart pounding like a monster,
then i suddenly realise,
that i was scared to return home.

i wanted so much to jump out,
just to get away,
but thinking that i have no other place to go to.
i wouldnt say that i dont belong,
but the feelings i used to have disappeared.

though its the birthday today,
but i feel so insecure,
i feel terribly scared,
that i dont know why,
tearful drops of salty liquid leaking.

The idea of returning,
or the idea of staying,
was neither what i would have picked.

i dont know what to expect,
and im feeling terribly wrong now.
i have no courage anymore,
just after what you told me.
not even a wish.

i would say goodbye,
if i have to.
cause i think im enough of a burden,
_ _ a_.


is this the last 15th wish?

i've returned.

peiyan.

The days are getting colder and colder.
I wonder when my heart will become as icy.
I've learnt to forget stuff i want to forget,
I've learnt to shut people from my sight.
I think i've lost myself to this world,
again.

I want to breathe the same air i did.
I want to live the same way i did.
but I'm such a coward now.

That setback is more than enough.
I'll stop caring,
cause everytime i care about something,
i lose it.

Somebody,
Save me.

Blood Red.

its crazy. its a mad house, a mad room, a mad life.

anyway, school has been boring, its irritating my life. but im really happy that all tests are over for the term. i srsly, do not want the next tests/ exams to come, i hate studying like a mad cow.

im alone at home, for the next 2 days or so. im very bored, i miss my burther and sister and everyone alot.

anw, i've got nothing to blog about. and there's training tmrw.
its a very very boring weekend. oh man.


wishes that, all's well.
can never be worse than this.

emo-pink.
drying and dying fears.

jojo is back:)

HEY:::::::::: 

i am studying geog now! i decided t ppst on the blog cause i have this feeling that i am going to miss my irritating brother when he goes to the army:( OHH SHUCKS! yea. i feel very sad, oly one more month with him then BYE BYE for like the next two years.. ohh wells i'll get over it:)

haha.  just realised that geog is very easy and fun to study, i know cel-ne is going to kill me la but I DONT CARE! haha. i have been laughing a lot these few days haha. cause i am beginning to enjoy secondary 3 A LOTTTTTTTTT! haha////

oops gotta go, see ya next time!

 love, emo greeeeeennnnnnnn

Whats There Stay There.

More than half way! just abit more till the commontests ends.

maybe life will become more normal after this.

oh wait. i forgot, after cts will be oac.

i dread it, i'm sorry, but theres certain reasons.

like how i think everything about oac will be screwed up.

i've went for coals, it was enjoyable.

but that was only when there was 130 students,

oac will overfload the whole campsite, overfload with students.

damn oac.

thats not the only reason.

grrr... i wish there was no oac, no oai, no oal. nothing. nothing at all.

i just realise that this blog is a perfect place for me to talk crap,

then my own blog will be where i write happy happy stuff:)

wonderful.

i dunno why, but i feel that my days in cedar is numbered already.

truthfully, i never want my Cedar days to end.

like its always oh so fun here.

i hope things never change. hope they never will.

and i pray that i can balance my life, keep it on track.

since this is already an sad post,

i shall just say that i'm stopping archery for a few months,

most likely even after archery nationals.

whats scary is that i'm not sure this is a right decision,

whether its worth it. giving up so much for a gamble.

i hope jiaolian won't kill me and stuff, hopefully he'll understand,

that badminton is first, will always be first.

okay, i think thats all.

some problems can only be solved over time i guess.

Emo-Red.

I walked a minute in your shoes

they never would've fit

I figured there's nothing to lose

I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down

You're an island and my ship has run aground

Time can tear us apart,

But it won't break,

anything that We are

We are

We won't say our goodbyes you know its better that way

We won't break, we won't die

It's just a moment of change

All we are, all we are

is everything that's right

All we need all we need

a lover's alibi