I dont think i can.

this is making me feel sick.

P

leave before i fall apart,
and to end we meet and all.

Breaking My Heart Again
I'm calling Rejection.

Christmas cards, Christmas cookies, Christmas cakes..
well, maybe not.

P

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

unexpected, rises.

turning mute, if that's the case.

well, well. Guess im left alone to talk about the world now, since the other 4 disappeared on me.
Jo, Cel - church camp.
Kel - korea.
Rach - bangkok.
THANKYOU VERY MUCH. ):
why's everyone disappearing. ( at the same time somemre).

anyway, sister is finally back. poor thing, she starts work tomorrow.
while my brother is living in his own world back in melb, who doesnt want to come back!! but too bad, he has to serve the army. wahahah.
im out of stamina. wanted to go swimming, or squashing, but i guess not. well, maybe later, depending on my fat butt, whether or not it wants to get up.
SHOW TIME, back to greys. ( i have to study :/, and do my homework. im so dead) die.
so lazy, oh God.

RISE & SHINE BABE.
time to go.

who else?

HI BOOBIES OF THE UNIVERSE OF PEACE!!
YOUR QUEEN IS BACK FROM HAWAII!
so awesome, ALOT of shoppinggg done.

HAWAII - beautiful famous beaches, awesome sunsets, tall coconut trees, NUDE BEACH (WAHAHAH), mountain range, waterfalls, craters, volcanoes, lava rocks, snorkeling, body surfing, beautiful hibiscus, alot of shopping, humongous supermarkets, best steak in the world, great fresh fish, hamburgers, fries fries fries, sand, clear blue water, AND MANY MANY MORE.

ive seen your true colours.

I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS.
HOPE YOU GUYS ARE DOING FINE.

peiyan

HI WE'RE PEACE FOUR!

WE LOVE ALOT!

photos during badminton chalet(:


KELLIE UNGLAM! HAHAHAHA!

KELLIE UNGLAM AGAIN! HAHAHAHAH!

HAHA! THATS WHAT KELLIE DESERVES CAUSE SHES TOO UNGLAM!

JO-ANN AND KELLIE ARE ALWAYS RETARDED!

this is the best photo ever! its like by peacefour(:

yeah, we're very peaceful people, totally can tell right? hahaha!

this was the eyd's pose! just that its on shadow! its funny ttm!

The countless reasons why i love us,
is written on every photo.
Why Are We Always So Cool?
HAHA(:

I think badminton chalet was the bomb(: it was the most fun ever ever ever! like i had so much fun! hehe(:
first day, STUPID CAROLINE AND CHARLENE AND CRYSTAL AND JOANNE SCARED ME WITH 3PRAWNS! and i thought it was some shit or smth. but its better than peiyan who thought it was a bird-.- like SERIOUSLY?!?! then we had more fun watching final destination3! it was gruesome ttm! then ate dindin at subway!:D and later watched MORE MOVIES!!!!! after the sec4s left, we had a sec3 and sec1 bonding time(: My partner was YiXuan the blur pok! she was my disciple! and i had to teach her taiti! it was funny cause the other sec1s were blonde! hehehe! enching was peiyan's, gladys was vanessa's then jo's! and it was fun teaching those blur poks(: and i think emily and vanessa are very adorable! like they will do alot of stupid stuff! HEHEHEH! and zhenrong was emily's partner! then we taiti for damn long before watching twilight! OMG I LOVE TWILIGHT! CAN'T WAIT FOR NEWMOON! and we bonded alot with the sec1s(: it was nice(:

Sentence of the day:
"I AM YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL...."
"YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL SAYS SLEEP..."
by Peiyan the Retard!

second day passed very very fast! filled with movies! oh had the AMAZING RACE! me and puimun were ics for the birdwatching tower stop! those losers had to climb up like 4 stories to get their forfeit, then go down 4 stories to draw "I(L) JC AND PC" it was damn funny lah! OH YEAH! I OFFICIALLY DECLARE MYSELF PRINCESS CELINE:D WAHAHAA! then they had to run up 4 stories to make us look at their drawing before they can get their clue!:D i think me and puimun make a good pair! hahahaa! oh yeah! that day also played alot of card games lah! and there was this time where we passed aound this salted and vinegar lays, then zhenrong took it and went:
"WAH so salty!"
"WAH so sour!"
"WAH! WATER WATER!"
then she went running around finding water! it was hilarious!

then there was fuzzyduck,duckyfuzz and daffywuzz! and HAINANJIFAN! where peiyan the dumbass started with NAN! HAHAHA! SHE CAN'T EVEN GET THE FIRST ONE CORRECT LAH! SHES AN EMBARASSMENT! hehe!
then peiyan and joanne chee had to do a forfeit, and the conversation was:
caroline: "Joanne, you suggest a forfeit lah! since peiyan cannot think!"
joanne: "hm....*pauses to think* DUN WANT! TOO WRONG!"
*EVERYONE LAUGHS*
Joanne: "okay... i've got one, peiyan, say... 3 steps into making your first sex."
*EVERYONE STUNNED*
ITS DAMN WRONG LAH! JOANNE CHEE HAS NO SENSE OF DECENCY! even sec1s were around when she said that! DAMN GROSS!
later watched dead silence etc etc.
PEACEFOUR WAS DAMN HIGH! AMERICAN FLAGGGGGGGG! hahaha! cause we started to call ppl by their shirts! and it was funny!(: it just means we were damn high luh!
but i like the second night cause i got to talk to natalie for HOURS! and we caught up alot:D LOVE IT LAH! can't wait for another:) HEHEHHE!
but the second night i stayed up till 7am to sleep): so sad right!

third day was the best! i loved performance night ttm(: had so much fun! the juniors were damn good in their performance lah! hahahaa! and i almost cried singing the song. looking at theresa and natalie and alena, it made me feel damn sad. i really almost cried. and thank god our performace was a success:) SEC3S ROCK! i hoped bella liked her present(: HEHE! OHOH! YOU KNOW I MADE CAROLINE CRY WITH MY LETTER! WAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! i hope i made natalie cry too(: HEHEHEHE! anyway, performance night made me realise how much i will miss this batch of sec4s): we're like damn close can! and i talk to everyone of them. its so awesome:) can't believe they're leaving cedar. i miss them alot. they are like my favourite people all into one. i'll miss the whacko too! we had alot of fun as a team. loved it. love you guys. i will miss you all loads. all the training times, when each one of you all made training so special and unique, how we would do pt as a team and suffer the pain tgt, how we go to macs aft training. how we slack tgt. everything. everything about it i'll miss. you seniors are the best i've ever had. i'll miss you all. i love you guys alot. you're all very important to me. we made a team, i'll never forget, you made cedar badminton complete.
i love you all. thanks for the memories. i hold them dear, till now.


miss you guys already.

love,
Celine.

DANG WE'RE HOT(:

omg, i can't stop laughing at jo-ann in all the jumpshots! shes so adorable lah! she's like levitating, not jumping! hahahaha! i think peace 4 is so awesome(: and i felt very happy tonight, eventhough its like 2 am in the morning and we have chalet tmr, cause i have this feeling that peace4 will bond ttm during chalet(: i hope so(: i can feel it! the damn good midnight cyclings etc etc(: love it lah! and you know, the first thought in my head when i saw the jumpshots was:

I LOVE PEACE4:D

BULLSHIT.

YOU.
ARE.
FULL.
OF.
BULLSHIT.

SUPRISE.
HAHAHAHA, okay im still trying to find a nice photo of all of us. (then it'll be very very pretty)
anyway, doubt anyone comes here!

goodbye


i need us to know.

everything's just so damn daoufuffuckingduabdsuaba short-lived.
now, you wanna tell me what i can do bout it?

sorry guys, its been a long time since the forbidden word was under control.
but let me tell you, its a really appropriate moment to use it.

year and year, the same feeling comes by.
im sick of it.
and i really do not know what to do now.

oh shit the f.

be careful of where you're standing.
i wont sit by.


pink.

hello my beasts. beauty is here to posttttt.
sorry, its been a long time.

today we went to that place, then we did those stuff, then we ate that thing.(: awesome day hur!
today was the FIRST:
-time cell went to www.
-time seeing all 6 of us in costumes.
-time we all went out together after ee axe eh am ass.
-time i saw SOMEONE buy a TADPOLE!
and it had colours! cooooooool manxzxzx. hahahah. there are super slim tadpoles and regular tadpoles. hahah right celine?
-day of the busy 2 weeks ahead.
-time i ate 6 dollar worth yogurt which is awesomely awesome!

jo-ann is afraid of heights. the first ride was spent laughing at her scream her head off. hahah.

im scratching 2 mosquito bites on my leg now.
itchy itchy.

ming tian you hen duo ren hui pon na ge dong xi.

i bet you are lazy to figure that out(: its okay. i know u guys well enough. or maybe the issue is not abt being lazy, cos even if i type it out in normal chinese words, u guys wont understand it, cos ur chinese is HORRIBLE. hehehe mine too): olvl chinese up soon.

so.........
my lifes gonna be busy.
py knows my schedule. u can ask her.
but i bet she forgot alr. cos around 30 mins have passed. hahaha.
i dont want to do chinese compo. MDM GOH, DO U HEAR ME?):

hahah nights people.
(:
orange.
(i still want to be green)

going through the seasons.

Now, all the time in the world belongs to us.
But to who, shall it gain?
All.


ya know.
throughout this whole exam maniac season,
ive really come to know myself better.
- a real heartache. ( to know )


sometimes, way far off the normal pitch.

good luck emos(:

another...2 weeks(:

love you all(:

HOT asses. esp peiyan's!

i'm so damn scared.

anyway, since im on the comp, i shall just drop some pics for you to enjoy. ( haha, cos got my face). had training this morning, played not too bad for some parts. coming down to this, it actually all depends on your mental strength, how it works, how you want it to work. your brain is not there to work its ass off during exams, but its actually there, constantly to give you your moral support. just think about it. okay fine, its not your brain, its your mental strength, (but its still part of the brain, so lets just use brain.)

GET YOUR DAMN PRIORITIES RIGHT.

oh and today, we had a good damn first bite of Big Mac, together.

shit, we didnt look at the time, 10/9/09 is good enough, approx 1.48pm.

and its friday, the 11th, september.

fragile hearts, fragile souls.

peiyan

12.30 A.M.

i cant express what im feeling now.
okay, in simple summarised form, im ANGRY. and very very annoyed that i can pinch and eat someone up, till the person has blood clot everywhere, thus harming the cardiac cycle. so sadistic and it doesnt make sense, but well, i cant help it.
im maddd i tell you. WAHLAO KNS. GO AND DIE. (just kidding), but still, please go and bang your head against a wall.
i dont think i need you around anymore. you... changed lah k.
tsk.
i see 2 but not 3.
i see no happy faces around.
i see shit but never see pee.

.: this is so crap. thankyou for appreciating my crapness! ( i know you do).

anyway! today, i went for the career exhibition, and well, haha went to almost every booth to get brochures and all. and while consuming my dinner, i read through the brochures, of every jc/poly that was present. and guess what, i still have no idea what i wanna do! so annoying, and srsly, i need to know fast, due to some particular reasons :D ! my mind's clearly in a state of a dilemma.
i srsly wonder what field ill be working in, in the future. anyone wanna help me??? haha okay, i sound like a loser.
so ive decided to post every 2-3 months! hahahaha, to keep it alive. BECAUSE I KNOW SOME PPL WOULD NOT EVEN BLOG IF THEY HAVE HALF A YR TO DO SO. stupid people! regarding the most recent post from celine tan qingyan, there's clearly something very very very wrong going on inside her brain, and its close enough to the extreme sector!

and wow, how much time flies, there's only a month away to end of yrs. it only feels like ive been in sec 3 for 2 months at least. goes to show how unbonded our class is, pretty saddening. i miss my 2S manxzxxz. i need them as my source of SOS!

i cant help it, but just get so mad now. everytime the incident or the whole matter sets in and gets processed into my brain! would i conclude it as a regret? for now, SURE THING, YES. ncuhbfvusbvubsovbsvbfsbvubvfubvsuobvusdbvoubfuvbudsbajlapwodioawuerbfbjsd!!!!!

another thing : people these few days never think twice about what they say, or what might actually happen in the future. somehow its always 3 months later, when ure doing the actions of what you, yourself criticised then. this is what i call, PLAIN STUPID.

and training has been irritating as well.

Put it this way, Life Still Sucks!
cant live it well, can i?
BASH.

love,
pink!

do not miss me, 3 months then.
KERRRR- BYEEEEEEE! (peace 4 - bye!)

okay, i realise that was mean! hahaha! i shall post abit longer!
today is teachers day! its awesome! we had loads of fun playing touch rugby!
and we were damn competitve lah! i think it was a draw in the end:)
but it was realy very fun! hahahaha!
and i think peiyan is doing a good job keeping this blog alive:D

anyways, we went to kovan to eat sakae sushi:D
just peace4! and it was very funny, cause we met alot of ppl! hilarious lah!
and we went to see rachel afterwards, shes still just as short and WHINY!
cannot take it! and i hope rachel forgives me for not telling her any earlier! haha!
and we saw amanda, huishan, isabel, wenyun:D
i shall post about wenyun on my own blog! she become very pretty! hahahaha!
okay, i hope you all enjoy your holidays, i hope yanyan forgives me cause she loves me!
kay, goodnight:D

PEIYAN LOVES ME! I KNOW IT! I JUST KNOW IT:D



love,
celine:D

bcuiwgfvvacudbcubcbbzucwuacvbcuvcubqk

Today,
I actually thought i was a step away from death.


peace's 4 quote of the week : LIFE SUCKS.

it does.

pink

the process of studying. i get mad when i study. but still pretty!
but eww, my words look gross here.

as fragile;

hi.

okay, ive decided to change the way i post.

i realised, whenever i blog, there's always this smth unhappy i always have to say, whether its words, pictures, poems, or shit. ( which people wont be able to understand, so why put them there?).

so from now on, im not gna post this shits on this blog, unless its a emergency.

cancel cancel cancel. you've got a book instead.

so hey, i baked/cooked yesterday.

baked a carrot cake, a chicken pie, and linguine. i didnt really make the linguine, but its smth i had during dinner, so ill just put it there. so pictures are above, as you can see, unless ure blind.

GUESS WHAT, I'VE A NEW RESPONSIBILITY STARTING FROM TODAY.

I've GOT......

A DOGGGGGGGGGG!

haha, yea right, i wish, hahahaha zi-highing.

i GOT A SWEET PLANT.

ANYWAY,

i went to this florist place today, big and gigantic. and just decided to get a plant for myself cos i was bored. sooo, i went hunting for suitable plants which is suitable to grow in my room, doesnt need much sunlight, andd doesnt need much water. --> i got STM, so its not very nice to get a plant which needs water everyday, cause ill get depressed if my own plant dies.

i didnt get a catus, cos i wasnt allowed, so i hunt and hunt, and i found a HEART SHAPE PLANT. which belongs to the catus family! which number 1 , met my objectives. and moreover, its cute and pretty like me. BRILLIANT STAR CHOICE. A HEARTSHAPE PLANT. its really nice, and really ideal as gifts man, too sweet. its literally 6 HEART LEAVES. but too bad, you'll never be given one! haha, just kidding, nice py shall consider.

post the picture of the sweet plant next visit. ( if i rmb)

oh, and it hasnt gotten a name yet.

okay, its past my bedtime, and there's depressing school tmrw.

sigh.

see the world next weekend.

pink.

You could be happy,
And i wouldnt know.
But you werent happy,
for the days that just keep passing by,
And for that,
I knew.


some words/ ppl really get into my head. like what they say, just makes so much sense, though how much i wish they were just talking crap. it pierces your heart, like a whole long hollow needle, it pierces, you bleed, you try to be so strong, but yet so vulnerable and often, start tearing. and what comes next? do you get yourself out of that plight? or do you choose not to do anything bout it, hoping, praying?

low self esteem, people might say. but what do you actually feel?
however, the saddest part, is that you choose, you just choose to hold it within you. just like a cell wall looming over you, non-permeable, you aint gonna get out, not unless you force it out of you. but how often do you do it? rarely. only to the extent of extreme help.

i dont know.

( no link to the above)
if the flower wilters, but yet had gotten pollinated and blooms to another,
what would happen next? will flowers still exist, will there still be flowers left for them to even compete for sunlight?


okay enough. if you just read the whole lot up there, i must say that you just wasted your time, cause you wont understand hahaha. okay sorry. thankyou for act spending your time to read it! haha though ill still laugh at you.

ive been so extremely slackkkkk, so so so slack.
i come home from school, bathe, eat, watch movies, sleep, eat, watch tv, sleep. HAHAHA. ill treasure this, but i promise to start studying soon, and be serious, since, my results, aint very good. ( yes, i know)
school's such a bore. well partly because of the flu, no assemblies, no sitting tgt. but wait, since when was school fun?

okay its 2.10 am now. im gna wake up at 2pm tmr. but i shant, cause its a bad thing to do.
ahh bye, im tired.

ps:// DOT. I KNEW THAT OKAY. HAHA but i really wonder who you are. congratulations, cause i think ure the first to tag, besides natalia.

and stupid celne, SHUTUP. I KNEW IT OKAY. I KILL YOU THEN YOU KNOW.


guess for yourself.
if you arent able to guess, you are stupid. hahahaha okay just kidding.
; pink.

Its funny how dead friendships can rekindle if you would just give a damn.
hehehe
dot is damn funny! she diss peiyan very well! i like people who disses peiyan:D
anyway, today was fun! go my blog see!
hehehe!
btw, we need to play bridge more often,
prepare ourselves when we go to the same jc and join bridge club.
hehehe maybe we can try to play mind bridge,
but i doubt my brain has the capacity to memorise every step that 4 people take with 52 cards.
thats just WICKED SICK! HAHAHA!
i'm damn scared for chinese oral:(
grrrrrr......... can't all exams be on the same day so that i can screw it all?
anyway, i must remember our new shake!
next monday we shall officially use it can!
SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE JUST SHAKE IT;)

hon, its red.

You'll be the last one,
ill turn to.

damn it.
i really feel like using the word now.

)::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

And when the sun dies,
Where do we go?

hi. pink is backkkk!
because,
MID-YEARS 'S ARE OVERRRRR. like finally!
which should have been done a month ago.

getting back papers tmrw, so not confident for papers tmr.
sigh. well, ive told you many times, that chinese is like a foreign lang. its not my fault such weird, smelly characters dont interest me! i shall hope for the best.
however, when you hope for smth, it never comes. or maybe, it just rarely comes.
but smart py, obviously will have the geog qn abt the forest CORRECT, individual support counts!

anyway, we had sushi buffet today, @ suntec.
and as usual CELINE WAS LATE! (STRANGLES!)
okay so when we reached the place, aft miles of walking, we finally reached the place!
there were 6 of us, and guess what awesome jo-ann and celine ordered.
24 handrolls, of softshell crab and california rolls. so everyone had to eat 4 each, and other sushi from the.... ( i forgot what its called) the moving thing. haha, plus desert, and plus other stuff we ordered from the menu! FULLLLLLLLL TO THE MAX : SO NOT READY FOR TRNG.
am so really glad that this whole week's trng is off, give me more time to PLAY PLAY. actually there's nth much to do! but i shall enjoy it before it ends.

okay, after the sushi, we went to walk walk around. and so, we wanted to catch a movie, but the movies were boring, so we decided to go for fish spa! and we started laughing at the thought of it, super funny! then when we reached the place... it was like $10 for 10 mins. SO EX PLEASE. the fishes look really weird too, i expected them to be like a GOLDFISH. hahaha. so we wanted to go to a fish shop, buy fishes, and put them into a bucket, and have our own spa. butttt,, it was impossible la, cos it would be too late alrdy, so we went k-boxing instead! it was quite fun, but got really tired at the end. after that, went homeeeee.
TALK ABT SOCIAL RESPONSIBILTY. haha, but, i use the hand sanitizer!! whenever i saw it at any shop, but not all shops obviously! hahahahah


not a few days, and things been bustling up.
i hate it.
anyway, i wanna watch my tennis.

p.y.
pretty one.

Memoriesssss:)

SMILE FOR US:)

i think we rock!

and we are like SO MUCH PRETTIER THAN YOU,

erm, let me rephrase,

I'M so much prettier than you:) HAHAHA!

RED-IS-SO-MUCH-COOLER!